to whomever it may concern,
i am in a state of constant confliction.
I want this. somebody wants that. (dont read that as if its only one person, because its several)
and in order to keep that person or thing around, i-unfortunately- appease them
i want this. she wants that
i want her. nothing.
i want her. complication. on top of nothing.
i want to sleep, more then anything.
BUT I CAN’T
my life is here now. nothing can change that
if home is where the heart is, then we’re all just fucked
please call me only if you are coming home
lets get fucked up and die
its not your fault, your just far away
hey love
thats the best anyone can do
i dont think you want to know
why do you ask
i cant decide if i hate you, or if you are the most beautiful person ive ever met
you always just acted like you hated me
always and forever
and all i can think of is the way im the one who charmed the one
who gave up on you
walking out on the show, is walking out on you
i wanted to come home and kiss you
ive got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
We’ll be together against this, we’ll be forever against this
what a catch
we dont suck. we dont suck
you suck
are you out there?
can i call you tonight?
2 more weeks, my foot is in the door
you have nothing to worry about, dear
i avoid you to get bye,
but i come to you at the same time
i must confess
im in love with my own sins
Lets Get Fucked Up and Die
LGFUAD
i know its a motion city soundtrack song. and im not particularly a fan of their music
but ive been wanting to get this tattooed somewhere
because recently, its all ive been wanting to do.
but notice
the “Lets”
implies that im not alone
again, conflicting
fin
ps.
people only write blogs so that people can read what they write.
im just acknowledging that, not justifying or disproving or anything of the sort. just acknowledging
