i can't.

not yet.

you wanted this.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

-Marianne Williamson

TAKE A HINT FUCK ME

Does anybody want to own up to this yet?

btw, i spent my night last night walking around, crying over my parents (divorce=inevitable) , and doing damage control. it'd be nice to have someone be there. but yet, i choose to be absent from my own life to be there for other. this shit really takes a toll on you. and yet i STILL can't sleep.

weird

dude fuck...fuck dude

might as well grow your hair out and toss all your flannels.

you're NOBODYS bro anymore

especially mine

Heroes

I've seen the best and worst of You,

but we're stickin' through

Cause without all the ups and DOWNS we've been through,

You know that it's true I could really get sick and tired of You.

(This is where You come in, I know that I can count on you to walk me through, and I'm making sure that anyone who's anyone can be the someone they've always wanted to)

quote

"I mean why would you subject yourself to so much abuse. because loving someone and not knowing if they love you back is the worst abuse in the world. or just knowing they dont love you back... yet you can't seem to get away... because you can't deny your heart of the truth."

6)

count 'em.

6

Today's the Day

English 1

Communications 1

History 2

Psychology 1

I am not afraid to fall in love,

I'm just scared i might land on my feet

Last night was fake,

and your face is everything that I've ever wanted

school will be the perfect distraction...right?

right?

right?

"sooo good"

so wrong.

*sigh*

insomnia.... we meet again.

don't worry, in the week off you've given me, I've only grown weaker.

I don't stand a CHANCE.

ugh

ihateyelling.alot.

Your Heart is Black and Blue

FINALLY, THE BREAKDOWN I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR

Done. with everything. with everyone. I'm hopping town and getting the fuck out of dodge. theres more to life than this spoiled-ass town, and i'll find it.

your lives aren't mine to lead. i need to find mine. I'll be out asap. and I'll leave my key on the counter. Dont look forward to it because I'm not lookin' back.

talk about a weak ass support system. well, I finally fell.

hit rock bottom too.

i wish as much as the next guy with a buzzcut that this breakdown was of the musical nature.

if only